Posted by This year my hope was to write more. This blog is mostly for myself. With all that has felt chaotic and rambled inside me, I had hope I could start to unpack by writing and gaining clarity along the way. As my word for this year has been listening, I realize, maybe, I’ve been listening…Read more »
Posted by I’m rounding out year 42, and what an unexpected year it has been. I had a mammogram on my 42 birthday that monumentally changed my life and my body. Not only being diagnosed with cancer, having a bilateral mastectomy and reconstruction, I also gained incredible clarity about the second half of my life. I am…Read more »
Posted by I have spoken about my restlessness and finding words for what is occurring within me. I have felt blocked at times, a loss at times, tired of everything at times, and frustrated at times. I have spoken out loud to several of those closest to me, my therapist, and my spiritual director. I’m not experiencing…Read more »
Posted by I’ve probably tried to start this entry a dozen times- different titles, changing words, multiple feelings, lost thoughts and a clear avoidance of sitting… being… pondering. I have found this space very hard to enter lately. The journal space. The feeling space. The pause and reflect space. It’s been a lot. It’s been too much…Read more »
Posted by This past week was a big week for my daughter and for me. It was a week of new normals, great endings, and exciting tomorrows. My daughter graduated from food therapy. She went from a child who only ate applesauce and yogurt with the occasional cracker and/or ice cream to having 20+ foods under her…Read more »
Posted by I am rounding the bend of what I initially dubbed, very cynically and exhaustedly, my “surgical vacation.” Little did I know what this time would entail and the recovery process it has held. I still, most days, feel uncomfortable and have trouble sleeping. The expanders that are finished expanding are heavily anchored to my chest…Read more »
Posted by 4 weeks ago today, I had breast cancer. 4 weeks ago today I had a bilateral mastectomy. 4 weeks ago today my cancer was fully removed. 4 weeks ago today, post surgery, I made myself get up and start my recovery journey. 4 weeks ago today I had 4 drains coming out of me that…Read more »
Posted by I have lived in a place of peace and hopefulness during this time in my life. I most recently found myself expressing empathy toward a government leader who recently was hospitalized with cancer, not telling anyone including the President. Granted, being that this person was in an official position, the news was believed to have…Read more »
Posted by I entered the new year actually staying awake and celebrating with my daughter, my husband and his brother (who is staying with us a while to help out while I’m down from surgery). I’ve fallen asleep at least two hours before the ball drop for the last several years. I am not a night owl,…Read more »
Posted by As this year draws to a close, I am grateful for the things learned and am learning, for the things survived and am surviving, for the journeys that are continuing and the chapters that I’m hoping to complete in the near future. This year I began with a willingness to embrace what may come, finding…Read more »
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