Posted by Driving into work this week, I witnessed a large carrier van cut an SUV off in front of me. There was the suspected honking from both vehicles involved, my eyes did roll, after the adrenaline in my body simmered down. For me, as I drive over an hour to and from work mostly Monday thru…Read more »
Posted by I’m rounding out year 42, and what an unexpected year it has been. I had a mammogram on my 42 birthday that monumentally changed my life and my body. Not only being diagnosed with cancer, having a bilateral mastectomy and reconstruction, I also gained incredible clarity about the second half of my life. I am…Read more »
Posted by Well… I’m continuing to explore and be curious about my restless soul wanderings and my relentless self-inquiries these days. I’ve also been listening to several podcasts around listening to your gut, and I know as women and religious people we are often told not to- that we can’t always trust that. I believe, for me,…Read more »
Posted by I have spoken about my restlessness and finding words for what is occurring within me. I have felt blocked at times, a loss at times, tired of everything at times, and frustrated at times. I have spoken out loud to several of those closest to me, my therapist, and my spiritual director. I’m not experiencing…Read more »
Posted by I have had some serious trouble and blocks in my consciousness especially in the last several weeks. I’ve been experiencing deep anger, was told by my therapist to let it be and not over analyze it, and I think it’s blocked my contemplative reflections, at least in my brain. It feels like brain freeze, without…Read more »
Posted by I’ve probably tried to start this entry a dozen times- different titles, changing words, multiple feelings, lost thoughts and a clear avoidance of sitting… being… pondering. I have found this space very hard to enter lately. The journal space. The feeling space. The pause and reflect space. It’s been a lot. It’s been too much…Read more »
Posted by The last two years there seems to be a song that remains with me during lent. Last year I sat and reflected deeply on “Hosanna” by Brooke Ligertwood. It remained on my heart and in my mind as I found myself sitting with the lyrics and the meaning of the words to me in my…Read more »
Posted by This past week was a big week for my daughter and for me. It was a week of new normals, great endings, and exciting tomorrows. My daughter graduated from food therapy. She went from a child who only ate applesauce and yogurt with the occasional cracker and/or ice cream to having 20+ foods under her…Read more »
Posted by I am rounding the bend of what I initially dubbed, very cynically and exhaustedly, my “surgical vacation.” Little did I know what this time would entail and the recovery process it has held. I still, most days, feel uncomfortable and have trouble sleeping. The expanders that are finished expanding are heavily anchored to my chest…Read more »
Posted by 4 weeks ago today, I had breast cancer. 4 weeks ago today I had a bilateral mastectomy. 4 weeks ago today my cancer was fully removed. 4 weeks ago today, post surgery, I made myself get up and start my recovery journey. 4 weeks ago today I had 4 drains coming out of me that…Read more »
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